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and so i came home early from work today and caught my daddy feeding durians to jia jia and ben ben…
me: wah, eat durians leh! got anymore left?
daddy: dun have lar…
me: huh? nice or not?
daddy: of cos nice lar! you dun get to eat, confirm nice [laughs loudly]
me: cheh…
then daddy washed up after jia & ben and went back to his room with the girlfriend.
i returned to my room too, to change into home clothes
15 min later, there was a knock on my room door…
daddy went downstairs specially to buy durian for me!
heh… lucky me… [beams with delight]
by throwing out my dvd player.
i’m living in a grey world. Meredith’s world. And it’s so darn unhealthy, emotionally.
Dearest baby, do u remember our first few months together? Hanging out at neighbouring void decks late at night, and having the worst panic attacks of our lives every other night, just because we felt so right for each other, yet felt so wrong to be together?
Do you remember how u described to me then – your panic attacks when you were just a little child? And how the attacks miraculously ‘infects’ me as well? Just like how twins know what each other is thinking of. That’s how connected we were.
And just for the record, my panic attacks are exclusive to you and you alone. Before I met you, I never knew wat a panic attack was, not even during stressful times like major exams. I’m not complaining though because I like being in your embrace when such episodes happened. Just dun let it get to me in my dreams, because then you will not be by my side to coax me back to sleep.
Oh right, why did I talk abt this? Because tonight meredith had a panic attack and mcdreamy was there to calm her down. Just like how u will hug me and soothe my uncontrollable sobs away.
Meredith’s attack was triggered when she had to ‘kill’ an elderly patient against her will, and to make it worse, watch her die over a few hours. Brings back painful memories of how daddy n I watch mummy take her last painful breath. And till this day i’m glad you were there.
The real reason for Meredith’s outburst? She was thinking abt her sick mum, worried that she’s going to die a lonely death. Meredith sobbed hard, and I dropped two huge tears, one in each eye.
Then there was the bomb, the childbirth, the brain surgery, the love, the unloved, the heart attack, and more. Too much… Too much to process, too much to think abt.
Damn, grey’s anatomy is poison. my kind of poison.
Watch out House, Grey might take over you! For now, my stubborn faithfulness stays… For now…
And no, dun throw out my dvd player pls… Cannot afford to have withdrawal symptoms.
i’m back!
desaru is a great place for… doing NOTHING! wahahaha…
it’s ok, i’m not complaining because i gathered as much before heading to desaru. i didn’t mention earlier but this trip is made with one sole objective – to sleep for a minimum of 10 hours, as advised by mr chua.
the reason why i chose desaru is because it’s probably the cheapest place. or so i thought. i was misled by the ultra cheap accomodation @ RM120 per night. but everything else is expensive!
just in case any of you guys wish to head to desaru to nua, try the website holidaycity.com. based on my research it has the cheapest accommodation at pulai desaru beach resort. RM120 (regardless of weekday or weekends) per night inclusive of free breakfast for 2 pax. i indicated that i wanted a king size bed, and we were given a huge room with king size bed + a single bed! cool! there’s a balcony too!
but the downside is, everything else is expensive. the return ferry tickets cost S$64 for 2 pax. and 2-way land transfer costs RM46 per pax.
it was a really do-nothing trip but dearest & i had no complaints as we had lots of time to relax. we basically just swim in the pool, play table-tennis, eat, watch TV (there’s channel 8 & U!) and SLEEP!
see the dark clouds? the whole sunday afternoon was rainy. luckily we weren’t into sea sports or it would have been very disappointing.
and here’s a cheery pic of dearest, soaking in the pool while the sun is still bright. cheeky face…
in the evening we paid a driver RM70 (expensive!) to bring us to sg rengit for seafood dinner. the dinner cost us RM179! but that’s because we ordered lobsters. hahaah… the restaurant was featured in channel U but we find that it is overrated.
back at the hotel, we watched tv in bed around 8 plus. by 9 dearest fell asleep, which pissed me off a little cos i was supposed to be the one sleeping for 10 hours, not him! i slept at 10pm eventually and woke at 8.30am. mission accomplished for me! but dearest surpassed me – he woke up later than me, and then continued to sleep again from 10.30am to 12 noon. sigh…
frankly, while there is really nothing to do there, i don’t mind going back to desaru again, especially if we could drive up ourselves. spending RM120 to sleep and swim… not bad… relaxing…
and, i can’t thank tracy enough! for being kind enough to drive us to and from the changi ferry terminal! thank you!
with this trip, let us look forward to better days ahead! HOORAY!
better late than never… here comes the entry on our long awaited Penang trip.
the trip to Penang was supposed to be (at least to me) a havoc durian tasting trip. but alas… it was not meant to be. nevertheless, the 4 of us had lots of fun – with food, driving on tiny roads full of bends, and visits to temples (and… my poor useless tummy full of shit – no kidding!)
let me start off with a complaint – the next time any of you takes air asia, don’t bother to check in online and print out your boarding passes. why? because when you are at the airport, you will still need to queue up to have your passports checked, which is, fair enough… except that the queue for online check in is longer than the one for counter check in! and the dumbest thing is, after you show them the boarding pass which you have printed out, they keep the boarding passes and issue you with new ones! DUH!
random pictures taken at the changi airport, all of us still sleepy…
with advice from alfred, we decided to rent a car for our 2 days trip, and i’ll say, it was good advice! we’ve had a lot of freedom driving around, stopping as and when we feel like it to grab food, and not to mention the thrill (for the 3 drivers, not me) of driving up and down winding hill roads, which can suddenly change from 2-way lanes to 1 single lane – at a bend! wooo… that was scary (for sheena, i believe)
and here’s our car – a dark purple proton persona, and one of the drivers… heh. the indian guy at the top left hand corner was the staff from hawk-rent-a-car who was pretty friendly and had a shock when dearest took his picture.
and of course… must show you guys the FOOD!
there was penang laksa (duh… by the way this is my fav of all!), char kway teow, lor mee/prawn mee (jackson! i am very sure you ordered prawn mee, not lor mee!!), curry mee, mctucky fried everything (chicken skin, sotong, fish, chicken meat, etc), apom, oyster egg, bak kut teh, fish bee hoon, fresh tropical fruits, durian (not so good), etc… YUMMY!
we went to the toy musuem which cost us RM20 each (for non-malaysians). i was quite excited about it… until i stepped in. the whole place was a maze of display shelves with hundreds of small little toy figurines locked behind glass panels. if you ask me, it’s not worth the money. but then again, i’m not one who loves toys, so i’m not the best person to comment
and… i’m not writing this in sequence, but the first place we went after collecting the car was the snake temple. despite being given directions by the indian car rental guy, we weren’t that confident of finding the place until jackson pointed out “there! ular! ular means snake”. LOL. so we found the place.
contrary to what was shown on tv, the snake temple isn’t that huge, and doesn’t house that many snakes. but it was still quite cool because it seems like dearest is not as scared of snakes as i thought he was.
so it was a quick tour for us, some photo-taking and off we go to head to the sunway hotel.
we also visited the tropical fruit farm where i had my mini disaster of diarrhea immediately after eating the ‘fresh’ tropical fruits. so much so that i had to miss half of the guided tour. the saving grace was that the toilet has a long water hose so that i can clean myself up after every… erm… ‘burst’ (?). haha…
the uncle who was bringing us around for the guided tour was chinese, but spoke in english with an accent. on and off, the guys try to talk to him in mandarin or hokkien but he always replied in english. makes me wonder why. he wasn’t the sort to make jokes but was friendly enough to answer our questions. he was quite pissed off at another indian group who didn’t want to join in the tour though. ha…
we also went to the air hitam dam. just for fun because we were running out of places to go to
it’s like this huge reservoir with a small dam in the center. we walked all the way inside to go to the man-made waterfall, only to find that the area is off-limits
another temple visit – the reclining buddha. it was not easy finding this place. we had to stop and ask for directions a few times.
when we finally found the place and stepped in, dearest held my hand and said “do you feel it? it’s so peaceful here i have goosebumps all over me”. at that moment, i felt… touched… and held his hands tighter. he’s my love.
and another temple:
there’s a really sweet story here, but i won’t share it for now. heh…
and beaches of course!
and here’s the various busy scenes of gurney drive, the famous tourist place with all the delicious food, esp the penang laksa!
and last but not least… the place with the good bak kut teh… except that we didn’t like the taste very much…
ok ok ok… i know this entry is not exactly that exciting. but that’s because it is almost 2 am right now and i have a ferry to catch early in the morning. yes! dearest is bringing me to desaru!
got to sleep…
IT’S FRIDAY!
we’re watching transformers tonight, and heading to Penang tomorrow morning! yippeee…
durian, char kway teow, durian, laksa, durian, rojak, durian, lor mee, durian, durian, durian, and more durian!!!
woohoo… exciting…
some other updates:
- went kite flying for the first time in my life last sat
- went ice skating for the first time in my life last sun (and fell on my bum twice)
- dearest made a courageous decision and quitted from his yucky boss job, and today is his last day at work
will put up photos the next time! have a great weekend!
flabby thighs, cellulite, thinning hair, bulging tummy…
sounds bad enough?
how abt this? WHITE HAIR!!!
argh… found a long strand of white hair this afternoon when I was in the toilet, about to go for lunch.
i dunno what to do with it… pluck it out? or leave it? and I dun even have e option of colouring it cos my hair will drop further.
life’s so unfair……
I had a new hairdo today. Dearest obviously didn’t like it much. But he tried hard to show otherwise.
While checking out my new hairstyle (again), he smiled and said: “who would have imagined that we will be together when we first met 9 years ago?”
Indeed amazing isn’t it? And it warms my heart so… that dearest will recollect the past…
Love.
last night we had a mini farewell party for edward at charlie’s corner at aroozoo. correction: edward organized the farewell party for himself (his treat!)
just a few days ago dearest and i walked past the changi village’s charlie’s corner with alfred and we saw erdinger. we both love erdinger, so i was mentally telling myself that i’m so going to have an erdinger during the farewell.
but when i saw the menu last night, i changed my mind. cos i saw little creatures!
dearest and i tried little creature when we were at wild rocket for my birthday dinner. i just did my lasik then so i couldn’t drink. but i took a sip anyway and i loved it! it has this pleasant refreshing taste to it.
and look at the label – an angel… so cute right!
so last night i ordered little creature. ah siong (friend of edward – dunno whether he is the owner or not but he definitely calls the shots there) who is an avid beer drinker, wasn’t tat impressed with my choice and tried to recommend other beers. but i was insistent – the beer was meaningful to me! hahaha… and ah siong said little creature is made from lychee**. so that’s where the refreshing taste came from.
good beer for me!
before they served me the little creature, i had a sip of this ‘girly’ beer (only 4% alcohol content!)
and it was. NICE! it comes in a series of different fruity flavours. i tried the grape first and because the alcohol content was so low, i thought it was just sparkling juice! so when i finished the little creature, i had the raspberry flavoured timmermans. woohoo! nice…
perfect beer for those who didn’t want to get high/drunk. hehe…
after drinking 2 bottles, the alcoholic guys wanted to make me drink another bottle again. i refused (why get myself so drunk on a weekday?) and the next thing i know, someone placed a glass of bubbly drink in front of me. i refused to drink until ah siong quietly told me “non-alcoholic”… haha… and so i drank it, and everyone else thought it was some cider beer. woohoo…
must go there again and try other beers next time. heard that can get discount.
**[edited]: J sent me a link to the Little Creatures showing its range of beers. And, no! it’s not lychee… argh… cheated. LOL. must try the pale ale next time…
this is totally inspired by sheena:
one day, sheena’s mum asked jackson: why do you love sheena?
the answer: just because
sheena’s mum failed jackson’s answer
over dinner last night (together with all of them including sheena’s mum), this topic came up again, and i asked dearest the same question.
coincidentally, he was holding my hands.
and so he looked into my eyes and replied: “there’s no why. i love you that’s all”
to me, it was an acceptable answer. i think love is unexplainable. it’s… just… a feeling. if the same question was posed to me, i will be at a loss of words as well.
mins later, dearest held my hand again and said: “i know why i love you”
“why?” i asked
“because you are always very good to me”
and that meant the world to me.
*beams*
just minutes after complaining abt putting on weight, I went out for a great dinner with dearest, sheena, jackson and sheena’s mum.
One big plate of rice, with several delicious dishes later and I whispered to dearest “not full yet leh”
And right after, we went for DURIANS!
OMG…
I remember when I first got together with dearest, I was 38kg. When my mum passed away, I lost 2kg and remained at 36kg for the longest time. Now, 5 years later, I weigh 42kg!
How does one put on 6kg in less than 5 years?
This is bad… Real bad…
Tat’s how I feel like when I can’t fit into any of my shorts.
Tat’s how I feel like when e only shorts I can fit into are fbt shorts.
I feel like SHIT.
Sigh…
dearest and i went to see mr chua last saturday. it was a very ‘informative’ session. originally i had wanted to blog all of it down so that i will recall the readings months later. however, i wasn’t sure whether it was ‘prudent’ to reveal the readings in public space, so i didn’t.
but i guess bits and pieces should be alright, right?
mr chua said dearest and i can only do business if we do it together. cos he complements me in some areas, and i complement him in other areas. if we do business without the other, the business will not succeed. one reason is: i can never make up my mind about things.
and it’s so accurate.
just last week i decided that i will be hunting for condo B.
so i started calling many agents and met up with a few. yesterday night i had 3 units to choose from. although the price is a little high, i was comfortable to pay the $10k to $20k extra. this thing was on my mind the whole night and i was feeling a mixture of excitement and confusion.
when i woke up today, i got more confused and less excited.
after much self-deliberation today, i changed my mind.
my main concern, and cause of confusion, is my daddy. suddenly, i felt i was not filial to want to move out of the house, away from my daddy, when i am not married. there are other factors as well but i was more worried about disappointing my dad.
so, i have decided to slow down the pace of searching for a property, and only buy something which i really like and can afford comfortably. also, i should also re-evaluate my criteria for an apartment. who knows, i may end up not buying any, and settle for a resale HDB if dearest and i got married eventually.
and… that’s my decision… for now. i guess.
let’s see how long i can stick to this decision for. wahahaha…
to dear sheena, i’m sorry for wasting your time yesterday night! and maybe no study room and kitchen for you le… 
the day where my fellow colleagues in the regional office will be told of their fate.
and i’m so sad now because one of the affected is a close colleague.
just days ago i spoke of him to dearest, describing how kind and generous he is to encourage me to fulfil my dream of buying my own home and assuring me that if at any time i run into financial problems, he will surely lend a helping hand. he helped to clear my confused thoughts and urged me to lead a life that i am happy with and not to be overly bothered by what happens in future.
just days later, he lost his job.
damn! he has always been a good performer. why did it happen to him?
to make it worse, today is his birthday
sometimes, life just sucks.
time to reconsider the plan on condo b.
i miss my baby…
4 days more
1) waiting in e car for dearest while he meets up with another jazz driver to discuss abt some second-hand car thingy… such as spoiler and strut bar etc…
2) waiting for good deals on condo B. Yep, after discussing with dearest, we have decided to buy condo B. Dearest like it tat it’s relatively cheaper and most importantly it’s freehold. Kinda missed out one 1 deal but not regretting (yet) cos I can’t possibly buy it when it was e one and only unit sourced right? Hope to find more good deals in the next few days.
3) waiting for our long-awaited weekend getaway. We are finally going to Penang! Will be going down to book the tickets tomorrow afternoon. Hopefully the air tickets are still available…
so, someone mentioned that I haven’t been updating my blog.
*guilty as charged!*
but I wasn’t exactly busy. lazy should be the word.
but I do have a new ‘hobby’ currently – looking to fulfill one of my new year resolution, that is, to buy my own apartment.
so, I’ve been working out my finances (but am pretty much still confused) and also doing some research on condos. it’s a horrible vicious cycle. one day I will decide, ok, I ONLY want to consider condo A. next day I will decide, ok, I will only buy 3 room, because I do not want to move house in future, and need the extra space for my kids. The next day I will be thinking, can I really afford it? And then another day I will tell myself, maybe I should just settle for a HDB. Then, I will debate with myself and say it’s alright to pay a slight premium for condo facilities, afterall resale HDB are not cheap nowadays. Then in order to solve the “i may not have enough money” problem, I considered getting a 2 room instead. Then the next day, I will think 2 room is too small. Then worse still, after insisting that I only want condo A for the longest time, I suddenly heard all sorts of negative remarks about condo A, which led me to include condo B in my list. And now, I won’t even consider 2 room, because condo B has the option of 2+1 room! and then I worry about not being able to finance the apartment in future, in case I got retrenched.
So many worries, so many considerations, so confusing.
Yep, so every SINGLE day, I am obsessing about condos.
Dearest has done his part by bringing me to both condo A & B to take a look at the site.
So, the next step is to start looking for agents to find out about the specific units and prices.
It’s so difficult to decide, when both condo A and B are quite different.
A: 99 leasehold, very convenient location but the entire facility is a little crammed, 2 room cost about $700K and 3 room cost about $800K
B: freehold, inconvenient location unless driving (even then traffic is a little congested) but entire facility is more spacious than A, 2+1 room cost about $630K and 3 room cost about $730K
How? Dilemma…
i hope i dun sound boastful here… but these 2 days i’ve been getting subtle compliments from colleagues.
“you look different, did you do something to your hair”
x 3
*happy*
and dearest seems to be mesmerized by me. LOL…
the pictures below were taken before i ‘turned pretty’… but tell me, which one do you like better?
these were taken at marina barage last saturday. we were there after celebrating my birthday over dinner with sheena and jackson.
continuing from my previous update on Lasik…
as i couldn’t open my eyes, i had to sleep away the discomfort. to prevent myself from accidentally scratching my eyes while asleep, i had to stick 2 pieces of plastic eye shields over my eyes to protect them. of course, dearest had to stick them on for me.
see the hideous things? and how ugly dearest had pasted the tapes over. i couldn’t open my eyes, but i still wanted to force a smile. hehe
and of course we had to take a couple pic together!
say goodbye to my collection of spectacles and contact lenses! (hopefully forever!)
and so i woke up after a really good sleep and felt no discomfort at all anymore. so i logged on to the internet and to protect my eyes, i put on my new oakley sunglasses!
this, is to prove that i can tape the eye shields on myself. and better than dearest! isn’t this prettier than the earlier one?
this is the collection of eye drops which i was supposed to use every 2 hours. in total there are 3 different types of eye drops. there’s also a medical certificate and a mild sedative to use in case i couldn’t fall asleep at night. (and obviously i didn’t need it! wahaha sleepy head)
