this post is simply to commemorate my 50th post, and also that there have been more than 500 visits to this humble little world to date (501 visits, to be exact).
happy 50th & 501st!
good night. it has been a loooonng tiring day. updates tomorrow!
sweet dreams…
it was a long dream. and as dreams are usually, there’s a series of disconnected events happening. this particular happening woke me up.
around 300 metres away from a flight of stairs, i turned around to see someone trying to help my wheelchair bound mummy down the stairs. in a split second, whoever it was tipped the wheelchair over too much, and i saw my mum being flung out of the wheelchair and tumbling down the stairs helplessly. when she reached the floor landing, she was rolling around uncontrollably in pain. i find myself running towards her and screaming “mummy”.
and as how my running dreams usually are, the legs felt like stone and each step was painfully slow.
suddenly, i realised that i was dreaming (while still in my dream), and much as i usually enjoyed dreams of my mummy, i forced myself to wake up from this bad dream.
and i was successful.
woke up with a pounding heart and couldn’t get back to sleep after that.
mummy has suffered enough. she shouldn’t be suffering in my dreams.
我想妳，妳在哪里？
dearest have gone MIA since midnight yesterday.
he is supposed to call when he reaches home last night but he didn’t.
ok, he does that sometimes. maybe he forgot, or maybe he was too tired. i don’t particularly mind.
this morning, i made the usual wake-up call. but he didn’t pick up.
ok, normal cos he’s quite the heavy sleeper.
but it gets worrying when you make like 20 calls from 8am to 10.30am and still can’t get hold of him. you wonder whether he has left his phone in the car or he has left it on silent mode or he forgot to bring out his phone when he goes to work.
and you start imaging the worst things like, has he gotten into an accident or is he sick? blah blah blah.
tell me, should i be angry or worried?
just in case you wonder, i am not possessive! it is not like i am tracking his whereabouts or whatever. it’s just that it is not like him to go MIA and therefore i worry like an old granny!
and it doesn’t help that i was hoping to go for sing song session tonight but my throat is sore, voice is hoarse, nose is stuck, and my head is killing me!!! feel like shit…
and then when he finally picks up my phone at 10.45am, the only thing he says is that he didn’t hear the phone! duh! i cannot be bothered to ask him questions. as long as he is safe.
again, i’m not angry. i’m not pissed. i’m just pretty disappointed. and it doesn’t help that i’m feeling sick – again. oh god, kill me, take this stupid headache away from me! don’t force me to have to take panadol!!
i have activities planned for the weekend – i cannot afford to fall sick again… boohoo…
edited to add:
dearest called. he couldn’t hear the phone ring cos he was deep in sleep.
apparently he stayed up the whole night to watch euro 2008.
ok, forgiven!
and there’s good news, he scored an average of B for his MC module!
yipee… not bad results for such a sucky subject (the textbook is unreadable – so dry…)
still feel sick though. but i’m still heading to topone tonight. brandy here we come!
蕭敬騰 – 原諒我
作詞：阿沁 作曲：阿沁
請不要分了以後還記得親吻過的承諾
妳的永久 已不屬於我
默默低頭那時我很多話哽在喉嚨
妳的笑妳的快樂
或許我愛太多想太多
我能感受 他比我適合
愛放了手 我偽裝冷漠
逼妳先說分手
請原諒我
原諒我不成熟
不愛妳是藉口
好讓妳離開我
請原諒我
好想自私將妳佔有
妳的寂寞就給我承受
換妳過更好的生活
請不要分了以後還記得親吻過的承諾
妳的永久 已不屬於我
默默低頭那時我很多話哽在喉嚨
妳的笑妳的快樂
或許我愛太多想太多
我能感受 他比我適合
愛放了手 我偽裝冷漠
逼妳先說分手
請原諒我
原諒我不成熟
不愛妳是藉口
好讓妳離開我
請原諒我
好想自私將妳佔有
妳的寂寞就給我承受
換妳過更好的生活
愛過恨過哭過也笑過
親吻過妳的脆弱
其實我比誰都要懦弱
原諒我
必須假裝愛錯
別讓時間逗留
我怕說不出口
原諒我
沒有解釋太多
心痛
別無所求
徹底忘了我
愛原來有捨得
我難過
我才懂
i don’t particularly like jam (still prefer aska) but this song is really nice. i love the melody of the starting verse, and the lyrics are so sad also… if you have not already heard this song before, i hope you will love this song as much as i do!
i’m on half day leave today
in another hour or so, i will be heading home to welcome the new member to my house
welcome sharp aquos baby!
hahahahaha… ya very lame…
pardon me for my over-enthusiasm.
my first lcd tv mah!
although i didn’t do a lot of research before buying, my research AFTER the purchase tells me that aquos is a great buy!
i must watch House on dvd tonight! must must must!
oh! it should be 2 new members! the washing machine will be here this afternoon too.
but apparently you can tell that the samsung will be a 2nd class citizen in my house. haha.
but maybe it can prove me wrong.
if it can wash my week worth of clothes in 20 minutes, i’m sure i will love it.
let’s see.
ok! i will send the clothes for washing, and then watch House.
how’s that for a plan? wahahaha
do i sound high or what?
see? i said i am a gadget freak…
lalalala…. and dearest is coming to fetch me from work.
all the way from admiralty to changi
oh, did i mention i think i am a lucky gal? hahaha
it was lunchtime when dearest called
on the way out to lunch, my colleagues laughed behind me.
“what are you all laughing at?” i asked
“nothing” and they laughed again while giving me a quick glance from top to bottom
“what are they laughing at?” dearest asked
“dunno leh, maybe say my back view look very straight“
“oh… say you fat ah?”
“ya i think i grew fat, so no waist… haha“
halfway through lunch, dearest smsed me this:
Hi dear dear.. You must eat full full k? Dun bother about them.. I kinda think that your tummy looks cute.. Haha.. Love you.. See you later..
hahaha… so sweet right?
to dearest: OK! i will make you happy by growing an even cuter tummy!
wahahahaha…
20th June Friday
21st June Saturday
22nd June Sunday
so, yeah, that’s about it – my boring weekend!
and yes, this is what we bought over the weekend:
dearest: 1 x sharp aquos 32″ hd-ready lcd tv model: LC-32A53M – S$850
dearest: 1 x HDMI cable – S$25 [update: dearest was amazed at how clear his soccer game on PS3 is!]
me: 1 x sharp aquos 32″ hd-ready lcd tv model: LC-32A53M – S$850
me: 1 x samsung 7.5kg top-load washing machine model: wa65up – S$470
me: 1 x FOC delivery
me: 1 x FOC wall mounting of lcd tv
total: S$2,195!!
dreams do come true (small dreams, that is…)
have been missing dearest badly. today he came by and picked me up for dinner!
we headed to liang court for sashimi and udon, something that we used to do last time.
it felt so good… strolling in the moonlight, my hand in his hand… and i said to dearest happily: “we are partor-ing! i like!” haha…
our dinner menu:
*salmon & hamachi sashimi to share*
*dearest had the pork chili udon*
*my keiran udon*
after dinner we had gelato – green tea & milk tea flavor. milk tea is nice!!!
what can i say? i am a satisfied little gal tonight… *grin*
cute?
ya ya… i know, very bu yao lian to include myself (and my doggies too) as one of the choos but it’s just a name. don’t be so particular ok! haha…
want one for yourself? go on: click here
i wonder if dearest will come and pick me from work today. really haven’t been spending quality time with him since sunday. 4 days is too much to bear… aww….
to prove that i am really really bored at home:
i was randomly surfing other blogs and saw this “spread firefox” campaign… and recalled that dearest ever said that we will need to use firefox to surf certain websites. so i gave it a try.
firefox is an alternative browser to internet explorer and it is trying to set a world guinness record. there is even a world map to show the number of downloads to date by country. the last i check, singapore has downloaded 22,781 times.
and they issue you a certificate!
oh dear, now i am wondering whether this is legal…. hmm… i sure hope so!
If you have been exploring the links that I have put up on the right, you may have read The Supergirl. I love reading this blog because it’s pretty entertaining, with product infos, sprees and really frank opinions! So last week i was reading and found this great new site:
Frb3 provides free* samples from various established brands such as bioessence, vichy, nugeno, ginvera, nivea, maybelline etc.
Steps:
1. Click on the icon above.
2. Register yourself.
3. 6 points will be awarded.
4. Browse “samples & reviews”
5. Pick a product which you are interested in.
6. Either “grab sample”, or “do survey” – this will give you 1 point, or “read opinions”
7. If you “grab sample”, you will be asked to verify your address.
8. Now you can “check out” the item.
*Note: the website does charge a very minimal delivery charge (from $0.80 to $2.40) depending on the weight of the samples. it’s only fair isn’t it?
go on, try it out. with 6 points, can get around 3 samples!
i think it’s a good deal! you get free samples to try, and get to see other people’s reviews and comments. then you can decide for yourself whether to buy the product. the surveys are short ones (like 5 to 8 questions?) which will help the company to improve on their product. i think it’s a good deal! oops… did i just repeat that?
have fun sampling!
remember my earlier post about taking the cpa exam?
according to ICPAS, candidates will be receiving the results in 6 to 8 weeks from the day of exam.
last week was the 8th week. and i didn’t receive anything! wah… so worried that i have failed.
checked with phyllis on mon and found that she is also anxiously waiting for the results.
today alice asked me about it. and i said i have not received the results yet.
and guess what, when i opened the letter box just now, there was a letter from ICPAS!
really quite anxious. tore the envelope and pulled out the letter… and flipped it open… and the word shows: PASS.
YIPPEE!! woohooo….
i think alice is my lucky star!
but here’s the catch. i passed the exam. but i am not a CPA yet.
seems like i will need to apply to ICPAS with the results in order to be a CPA officially.
oh well…
i passed!!!!
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have not seen dearest for 2 days le. may be 3 days if i don’t see him tomorrow as well.
missing him lots. sigh…
edited:
just half an hour after this post, dearest showed up miraculously in my room! last weekend, i gave dearest the key to my apartment so that he can let himself out if i fell asleep etc. so tonight he surprised me by appearing unannounced. with presents! dearest darling bought me a lovely baby g watch. it’s an old model but he knows i love it. so he bought it for me – no reasons (except that he loves me? haha). i also get a new addidas sports tee to match my green shorts!
dearest left quickly since it was quite late le… and, well, i am still missing him…
10 Promises to My Dog
Quote from youtube:
12-year old Akari fell in love with a puppy that had wandered into her house and adopted it.
She names it “Socks” as its’ paws looked like they had white socks on.
The girl and dog are inseparable, and the pet was a great comfort to Akari while grieving her mother’s death.
However, as Akari grows up, her feelings and interest moves away from Socks.
Year by year, their distance grows, which also leads to her physical distance as she moves to a far off city, and must leave Socks behind to a childhood friend.
One day Akari remembers the 10 promises that she had made to Socks and her mother…
Is this movie heartwarming or what?
It is in japanese, and i think jap movies tend to be a little slow and draggy but i sure hope this will not disappoint.
Reminds me of Eight Below… Hmm… feel like watching Eight Below again.
Wall*E
Quote from youtube:
After hundreds of lonely years of doing what he was built for, WALL•E (short for Waste Allocation Load Lifter Earth-Class) discovers a new purpose in life (besides collecting knick-knacks) when he meets a sleek search robot named EVE.
EVE comes to realize that WALL•E has inadvertently stumbled upon the key to the planet’s future, and races back to space to report her findings to the humans (who have been eagerly awaiting word that it is safe to return home).
Meanwhile, WALL•E chases EVE across the galaxy and sets into motion one of the most exciting and imaginative comedy adventures ever brought to the big screen.
Joining WALL•E on his fantastic journey across a universe of never-before-imagined visions of the future, is a hilarious cast of characters including a pet cockroach, and a heroic team of malfunctioning misfit robots.
I’m not sure why but I had this misconception from day 1 that this is related to E.T.
Well, obviously there is no relation but Wall*E is so cute! And I totally love pixar movies!
So this is a must watch. But the release date is like soooooo late… Heard it’s around end of August for Singapore (when US is releasing it in end Jun. damn!)
Oh and I think there will be Toy Story 3!
i love this song because 1) aska has a wonderful voice 2) the melody has such a soulful and lazy feel…
对爱渴望 – 杨宗纬
作词：管启源 作曲：蔡健雅
条件都已放宽 精采又怎样
爱情的使用量 尽量 减半
睡得太晚 梦太频繁
别来烦 帮个忙
独自呢喃 天都快亮 又回想
无尽无尽的夜晚 不打烊的小酒馆
没有人急著回家 没有人想各自回家
无尽无尽的夜晚 爱在舌尖上打转
测试他对我有 多疯狂 原来只是精神上
对爱渴望 那么向往 那么困难
早适应了孤单 孤单不怎样
爱人的使用量 尽量 健康
睡得太晚 梦太频繁
别来烦 帮个忙
独自呢喃 天都快亮 又回想
无尽无尽的夜晚 不打烊的小酒馆
没有人急著回家 没有人想各自回家
无尽无尽的夜晚 爱在舌尖上打转
测试他对我有 多疯狂 原来只是形式上
对爱渴望 那么向往 那么困难
对爱渴望 对爱渴望 那么向往 那么困难
对爱渴望 对爱渴望
been seeing many blogs with songs playing from imeem.
i am so inspired to share meaningful/my favorite songs with friends!
but wordpress doesn’t support embedding music in widgets. why why why?
have to resort to sharing directly in my posts instead… sigh…
so… watch out for MVs regularly here in the posts… until wordpress decides to upgrade their functionality…
it is sports sunday again.
badminton at tampines sports hall with dearest, sheena and jackson.
we may be able to graduate from the ‘baby class’ soon… haha
sheena and jackson had to go back for a family dinner, so dearest and i thought that we would head back to my place for a shower. along the way, dearest suggested to go jogging. !!!!
oh… i really dread jogging (though it is probably the only sporty thing that i am good at, considering that you don’t need much of motor skills to jog). but i sportingly (pun intended. haha) agreed – afterall we were already so sweaty.
so we headed to bedok reservoir.
and i am absolutely PROUD to announce that i managed to complete the full 4.3km!
WOW… anybody else proud of me? i am really really proud of myself! the last time i ran at bedok reservoir, i only managed to complete around 2km, and that was like a year ago?
so yeah, dearest and i completed 4.3km in about 30 mins.
but seriously i couldn’t have done it without his constant encouragement…
i have this bad habit of not talking when running and dearest always feels so bored running with me.
but still, he gave a lot of encouraging words to spur me on…
after the run we continued to sweat for a good half hour… sitting at the bench in the playground, looking at screaming kids playing the swing… welcoming the cool breeze on our faces and hair… it was a great feeling.
finally, we headed home for the long-awaited shower.
then guess what we had for dinner?
chong qing steamboat buffet! hahaha… a pig out cum sweating session.
oh well, there goes the exercise and shower…
it’s a good sunday.
we will regret it tomorrow. ha.
was watching a taiwan variety show with dearest last night and they were discussing about the most romantic gift that the guy has ever given to the girlfriend.
so this conversation transpired between me and dearest:
k: what is the most romantic gift that you have given me?
d: (thinks for a short while) not yet. (and smiles)
k: (excited) when?
d: you wait and see lor…
hmm… what could it be, and when will it happen?
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sent an email to dearest last night, something which i helped him out with.
subject: Nah! You Owe Me Big Time OKKKK…
body: in return for this, i demand a marriage. next year! wahaha…
dearest ignored the email. no replies from him.
haha, so i pressured him for a response.
at first he act blur. then…
d: ok la… sure marry you… tan seng (hokkien… go figure it out yourself)
k: when when when?
d: haha i love you so much. muck.
k: duh….
ok, so there you go… the exchange of words between a desperate old woman and a young man who is great at procrastination.
hahahaa….
still… i am a happy gal…
yeah! it’s the weekend! yippeee….
dearest met up with jackson for lunch yesterday. and brought a gift back for me.
note the word “brought”, not bought.
sheena actually bought me a really lovely precious moments figurine!
Your Friendship Sweetens My Life
i was so surprised. 2 friends sitting on a couch sharing sweet strawberries… aww…
there was a little card that accompanies the figurine too…
but i was cracking my head to think of a reason for sheena’s sweet (and expensive!) gesture. hmm… my birthday was just over and we celebrated… hmm…
anyway, so i smsed sheena to thank her and she said she wanted to cheer me up after reading “what does the future hold for us“.
gosh, how sweet is that? seriously, i was very touched.
it has been the longest time since i made a new friend.
i still remember sheena and i first met about 8 (?) months ago, when both of us tagged along with our boyfriends to their “annual gathering” – where the 3 buddies meet up 3 times each year to celebrate each others’ birthday.
i still remember i was feeling pretty apprehensive before sheena turned up because i wasn’t sure whether she will dislike me because i usually have this really stuck-up face when i am with strangers.
i still remember wondering whether i will like sheena – not sure whether she is the ang-moh speaking type or whether she is the spoilt-brat and princessy type.
when she turned up with jackson, i was relieved. cos she speaks chinese (haha) and is bubbly, ready to talk to all of us any time. it was not awkward at all.
from then on, the 4 of us met up pretty often. from meeting once a month to twice, from dinners to sing-song sessions, to planning a trip, to crazy shopping in bangkok, to dinners all over singapore, to late night suppers etc. now the boys call each other every few days and the girls gossip everyday over email (oops). we meet up like at least once a week and have done all sorts of sports like cycling, babmintion, swimming and bowling.
it’s pretty amazing isn’t it?
the 2 of us girls wanted to bring the guys closer, after all they have spent many tough days making money in the past and shared this brotherhood together. we not only achieved our objective, we are also on the way to becoming great friends ourselves. we talk about anything and everything about us and our boyfriends and share our dreams and future with each other. we even talked about becoming neighbours! haha…
8 months is a short time. while the duration can never compare to the other friendships built from our childhood days, i am confident our friendship will grow even stronger in time to come. i know i can never replace her besties but i know she is definitely a dear friend to keep for life.
dearest sometimes say he thinks i am fake when i respond to sheena in written words. well, i am not! it’s just that i’m just not good with words and expressing myself that’s all. i’m pretty reserved with my actions and don’t always show affection. admittedly because i am an only child, i am used to being taken care of (though it is not an excuse i know), so it is harder for me to take the initiative to show care and concern. but it doesn’t mean i do not care enough.
sheena, i know you will be reading this. again, i thank you for being such a sweet friend. thank you for lending a listening ear and thank you for caring. you know that i will also be there for you ok – just a call away – any time. i am fortunate to have found a friend in you.
I was getting bored to tears trying to write a research paper and happened to fiddle with the feature-packed Microsoft Word 2007. And I realised that it supports posting a blog entry directly!
Woohoo! This is so exciting!
Ok ok, call me suaku or whatever, but this is definitely a new discovery and it’s so fun!
Why?
Because I am a total idiot when it comes to HTML and although I heart wordpress, it isn’t completely friendly in terms of formatting.
Which explains why my previous posts all have the same font type, same font size and just the occasional different font colour.
Now I can play around with different font styles! I can bold, strikethrough, change font size, use fun
colours, apply new font styles, superscript, subscript, etc etc.
Yippeee!!! So fun!!! Right, right? Fun or not? Haha 
(well, the downside is Word crashes so often. It crashed like 4 times while I was typing this entry. Gosh… Can it get any less stable than this?)
Haha, I must be mad.
Ok, dearest is coming over to fetch me for dinner soon…
Time to publish this to the real internet world!
forgive me for the ultra-long post, and the haphazard train of thoughts. but pls do read all of it.
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today is supposed to be the start of a fresh week and for once since a long time, i was determined to lead a really productive and happy week. so i told myself, i will spend just a short time updating myself with the few regular blogs that i read daily and then get on to real work. and the first blog entry which i read shocked me. my thoughts are now all over the place – feeling quite lost now.
somebody young (24), pretty, helpful, vibrant and really popular in the 2 forums which i frequently surf went into a coma late last week. she was having a fever which wouldn’t subside and then suddenly she slipped into a coma. i won’t give the details but she was in a very bad condition with internal bleeding. doctors couldn’t find out the exact cause but said it could be a viral infection. she left the world last sat.
i do not know this gal personally but have always seen her posts in those forums and feels like i do know her. she had a lot of dreams unfulfilled and was looking forward to life. i can’t imagine how her parents, friends and other loved ones are taking this sudden departure now. they must be miserable, like i am sad.
just this sat, i was watching house with dearest. there was this episode where cameron diagnosed a young lady to be suffering from terminal cancer. cameron was determined to run many tests to find a little hope that the lady was not terminal. because the lady has no one else in her life. her parents had passed on, she has no siblings, and she is divorced. so cameron, being the ever compassionate her, felt very deeply for this lady. when cameron eventually confirmed the diagnosis, she needed to break the news to the lady. instead of doing it in the professional formal way, cameron made friends with her, laughing with her over silly matters. wilson caught cameron and chided her for caring. cameron said: “when a good person dies, there should be an impact on the world. somebody should notice. somebody should be upset.”
that statement touched me deeply. but never did i expect that i would feel the statement so soon – from foolz’s departure. believe me when i said that she was really well-liked. friends and strangers flooded the forums with their condolences. and coincidentally, someone mentioned “when someone good leaves the world, the weather changes”. it has been raining these few days, a change from the recent scorching weather.
i have always been very sensitive and emotional when it comes to life and death. i tend to read a lot into such happenings and reflect upon them. like i mentioned in my previous entry where a colleague passed away suddenly, i wish i can ‘preach’ more to those who i care for, to remind them how precious life is, that no one should take anything for granted, that bad things do not only happen to others – they happen to anyone and often when you are least expecting it, that everyone should lead their lives the way they want (without harming others of cos), that each of us are entitled to seek our own happiness, that no one should waste their day away thinking that they will have a tomorrow. life is precious. time is precious as well.
back to the viral infection… my dear ones, pls do not take your health lightly. a fever can be an indication of anything. could be your body telling you that you need more sleep, could be a throat infection, ear infection, heatiness, little harmless ailments like these. but it could be fatal as well. if you are not feeling well, do see a doctor and take all medications on time. no doubt not all doctors are able to diagnose properly but at least do your part in taking care of yourself. and most importantly, tell someone that you are ill! have someone check on you regularly. i mean, i can imagine if i was the one who had a viral infection, and i was alone at home sleeping, no one would know that i have slipped into a coma, unless dearest calls me and can’t get me! and do not say i am exaggerating. if it can happen to others, it can happen to anyone.
dearest: promise me that you will see a doctor whenever you are not feeling well. promise me that you will pick up the phone every time i call you even if you are sleeping. promise me that you will tell me that you love me every time. i promise to do the same.
my dear frens: pls share this with your loved ones – do not take any illness lightly. life is too precious and each of us are responsible for the well-being of ourselves and those who dote us.
and all: i may not be “somebody good”, or a perfect girlfriend or a best pal, but if one day i leave the world suddenly, pls do notice, pls do be upset, even if it is for a little while. in the meantime, i will take good care of myself. pls do take care of yourself too.
i love you all.
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| kerensa on eeeeeeww…… |
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