forgive me for the ultra-long post, and the haphazard train of thoughts. but pls do read all of it.
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today is supposed to be the start of a fresh week and for once since a long time, i was determined to lead a really productive and happy week. so i told myself, i will spend just a short time updating myself with the few regular blogs that i read daily and then get on to real work. and the first blog entry which i read shocked me. my thoughts are now all over the place – feeling quite lost now.
somebody young (24), pretty, helpful, vibrant and really popular in the 2 forums which i frequently surf went into a coma late last week. she was having a fever which wouldn’t subside and then suddenly she slipped into a coma. i won’t give the details but she was in a very bad condition with internal bleeding. doctors couldn’t find out the exact cause but said it could be a viral infection. she left the world last sat.
i do not know this gal personally but have always seen her posts in those forums and feels like i do know her. she had a lot of dreams unfulfilled and was looking forward to life. i can’t imagine how her parents, friends and other loved ones are taking this sudden departure now. they must be miserable, like i am sad.
just this sat, i was watching house with dearest. there was this episode where cameron diagnosed a young lady to be suffering from terminal cancer. cameron was determined to run many tests to find a little hope that the lady was not terminal. because the lady has no one else in her life. her parents had passed on, she has no siblings, and she is divorced. so cameron, being the ever compassionate her, felt very deeply for this lady. when cameron eventually confirmed the diagnosis, she needed to break the news to the lady. instead of doing it in the professional formal way, cameron made friends with her, laughing with her over silly matters. wilson caught cameron and chided her for caring. cameron said: “when a good person dies, there should be an impact on the world. somebody should notice. somebody should be upset.”
that statement touched me deeply. but never did i expect that i would feel the statement so soon – from foolz’s departure. believe me when i said that she was really well-liked. friends and strangers flooded the forums with their condolences. and coincidentally, someone mentioned “when someone good leaves the world, the weather changes”. it has been raining these few days, a change from the recent scorching weather.
i have always been very sensitive and emotional when it comes to life and death. i tend to read a lot into such happenings and reflect upon them. like i mentioned in my previous entry where a colleague passed away suddenly, i wish i can ‘preach’ more to those who i care for, to remind them how precious life is, that no one should take anything for granted, that bad things do not only happen to others – they happen to anyone and often when you are least expecting it, that everyone should lead their lives the way they want (without harming others of cos), that each of us are entitled to seek our own happiness, that no one should waste their day away thinking that they will have a tomorrow. life is precious. time is precious as well.
back to the viral infection… my dear ones, pls do not take your health lightly. a fever can be an indication of anything. could be your body telling you that you need more sleep, could be a throat infection, ear infection, heatiness, little harmless ailments like these. but it could be fatal as well. if you are not feeling well, do see a doctor and take all medications on time. no doubt not all doctors are able to diagnose properly but at least do your part in taking care of yourself. and most importantly, tell someone that you are ill! have someone check on you regularly. i mean, i can imagine if i was the one who had a viral infection, and i was alone at home sleeping, no one would know that i have slipped into a coma, unless dearest calls me and can’t get me! and do not say i am exaggerating. if it can happen to others, it can happen to anyone.
dearest: promise me that you will see a doctor whenever you are not feeling well. promise me that you will pick up the phone every time i call you even if you are sleeping. promise me that you will tell me that you love me every time. i promise to do the same.
my dear frens: pls share this with your loved ones – do not take any illness lightly. life is too precious and each of us are responsible for the well-being of ourselves and those who dote us.
and all: i may not be “somebody good”, or a perfect girlfriend or a best pal, but if one day i leave the world suddenly, pls do notice, pls do be upset, even if it is for a little while. in the meantime, i will take good care of myself. pls do take care of yourself too.
i love you all.
