it was a long dream. and as dreams are usually, there’s a series of disconnected events happening. this particular happening woke me up.
around 300 metres away from a flight of stairs, i turned around to see someone trying to help my wheelchair bound mummy down the stairs. in a split second, whoever it was tipped the wheelchair over too much, and i saw my mum being flung out of the wheelchair and tumbling down the stairs helplessly. when she reached the floor landing, she was rolling around uncontrollably in pain. i find myself running towards her and screaming “mummy”.
and as how my running dreams usually are, the legs felt like stone and each step was painfully slow.
suddenly, i realised that i was dreaming (while still in my dream), and much as i usually enjoyed dreams of my mummy, i forced myself to wake up from this bad dream.
and i was successful.
woke up with a pounding heart and couldn’t get back to sleep after that.
mummy has suffered enough. she shouldn’t be suffering in my dreams.
我想妳，妳在哪里？
